the compromise

i'm not a perfect person, well, nobody is...
i have made mistakes and i have made irrevocable damage time and again.
i have fought time, tide and crossed so many chasms
and yet i feel new
i feel new to everything that has been happening to me.
i have tried several times to push the envelope in so many ways and yet...
why does it still feel as if nothing i do is enough?
nothing i say is enough?
nothing i feel is strong enough to sustain my life?
the compromise is to stay strong everyday of your life when all you feel like doing is giving up....
the compromise is to fight tears that are falling every minute when you feel like breaking down....
the compromise is to hide what you feel day in and day out, hoping that someone can hold on to you for just a minute before you fall into your infernal hell...
the compromise is to fight the feelings that will never be good for you....
the same feelings that you thought would keep you alive-
the same feelings that are killing you now
the feelings that i have for you.