scared...

i talked with my boyfriend's good friend over the phone yesterday. too bad i had some major problems logging in to my own computer that i wasn't able to fully release some of the tension i felt

i am scared about what she said
she said that my boyfriend might have thought of coming back to his ex.
might have - you know this is a probability... an offchance, an uncompounded unreal frame of mind that has everything to do with chance
chance in french is luck... a bit of a fortune or success
success is spelled by the amount of times you've lost but never failed to get back on your feet
feet is something that you use to trample on people...
and people are usually social beings, incapable of being alone, according to socrates
socrates was a homosexual maniac who feasted on his young learner's body in exchange of wisdom
wisdom is very relative...on one hand, you're the wise man from the east, the next, you're the wise guy nobody wants to talk with
and if nobody wants to talk with you, then you are alone...
and you do not mingle with people... you are not a social animal
and being a social animal, you crave people so you tend to grovel and kiss people's asses, not to mention their feet just for some attention
and once you learn that people are mostly interested in themselves, you succeed
and suceeding in this endeavor, you earn true fortune, cos you might just end up with one good friend. odd chances, but there is still that chance nevertheless
and that chance just might happen, cos we live in a world of probabilities and never ending possibilities
and that's what drives me to be so scared...