been a long time

i haven't been posting. maybe it's because i'm busy... but i've been busier. maybe it's because there's nothing to write about. i'm just plain boring today-like butter on toast-everything is plain and simple.

i have realized a few things these past few weeks that allows me more peace of mind than i had before:

1. i'm a damned good writer! imagine people paying for the crap that you can write in a span of a few days. i'm pretty impressed with myself. yeah, in case you're wondering what the hell i'm doing right now, i'm giving myself a pat on the back, ala bambi!

2. people aren't so bad. life can be so cruel and knowing how bad life and people can treat you... it's just really hard to wake up having a positive outlook. being optimistic is so passe. but i have never been the type of person to bring myself down. see, the principle is that you know what you are, what you want, what you need and why. you have to keep it brewing inside of you for passion even if it is just for that day. and when you have great friends to acknowledge and maybe, even to support what you're about, life isn't so bad.

3. i want to stop the rat race. i figured this week that maybe i want to stop being so damned capricious and start focusing on one main goal. i want to stop being so oriented towards being a high-level corporate junkie and start achieving real objectives. i like my job, i love being part of this team, i am stressed in a way, but not as much as when i was working for huge companies that paid me more. now, i can pay more attention to things that matter - the people that i love.

4. i look good in a dress. how long has it been since i wore an actual dress? i have worn skirts, blousy tops, but i feel most comfortable in jeans and a loose shirt. now, since i tried fitting into this killer cream and beige dress that i need for march, i have been dying to fit into all of them. maybe it's because i lost some weight too. five months ago, i wouldn't be able to walk out of a sabella or an occasions boutique with anything ready made. now, i can actually fit into one of their dresses that actually hang as a display! yes! as a display! oh god, next stop... i'll make sure that nothing will ever fit me in faro or tubby again! :) not even extra extra small! haha!

5. my hunny loves me. that's all i know and all i need to know.