the day that was...

after 2 hours of trying to get to a tech support person, i finally gave up the fight and tried to fix my broadband problem myself.

voila, after 1 hour of tinkering with the security, IP addresses and DNS linkages, i finally got to where it is supposed to be. i hate my broadband connection. i just need it cos i am working and at the same time, i'd really like to keep in touch with people i value a lot. friends overseas, over other call centers, my best friends ever and to update my blog.

tonight, instead of taking calls, i'll be floorwalking and doing the feedback for my batchmates. paniwalaan kaya nila ako? i think i'm pretty good at giving real time feedback. well, i wasn't gonna be released from the QA department without getting at least an idea of how the modified sandwich model works. see, to motivate someone, you need just the right amount of rapport, expertise and just a touch of charm. now, i am not one to brag but i think, but i think i've got the rapport thing to a T. charm and expertise, well, i gotta learn that.

well, today i cried. not cos i was sad, but because i realized that i'm not ready to push my buttons yet. i realized that things about me would have to change and some sacrifices - huge sacrifices would have to be made in the name of the one thing i want the most. i realized that i may not be mature enough to handle the power of what i feel, nor am i strong enough. the beauty of this? i'm learning my weaknesses so i can pursue my strength, so i can be more mature, much stronger.

i've just been called an unofficial girlfriend. hmn... it doesn't sound right. well, it may not sound right. but honestly? i have never been this excited, this perplexed, this amazed at how i can smile at my reps and still find time to call him. i've never had a phone bill this high since, well, ever since! hehe! nonetheless, i'm smitten and every penny spent was well worth it.

wish i was a goddess. i'd be minerva, goddess of wisdom. ok, so she's roman, but i have always wanted to command muses and inspire the world, feed the multitude, advise and counsel, cos only in wisdom can you find peace and security, sanity and truth. a goddess also gets what she wants. and guess what i want right now... i want some toolz.