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i am so tired!
i just got back from an appointment. thank god for that small clinic next to us. i love the doctors there. they're pretty sweet. since it's a pretty small clinic as well, i got accomodated right away. i wanted to check if i had dengue. apprently, i just had some major stress issues. and i was pretty dehydrated. i was having the chills, it was pretty cold the whole night. me wearing nothing but a silk top and some shorts didn't help either.
saturday night, i was pretty tired. i had to floorwalk, and plug in to my kids. one of the people i had to plug in to was s!, don't give me a weird look, that's her nickname. her real name is sandra. anyhow, sandra has a problem with her AHT. when everyone is hitting 270 seconds, she would have an AHT of 400+ seconds. that is a problem for us. it's pretty impossible to certify someone with that high an AHT. i told her that she would have to be pretty straightforward from hereon. when asked when was the account opened, just state the date. her talk time is pretty high. i was begging for someone to push her to the limit and find time to just coach her on how to avoid getting that AHT. oh well, i'm pretty confident she'll hack it. we have a couple of more weeks to go. yeah, i know, we're all pressured to get everyone to be certified at this point. but, hey, i'm pretty optimistic. tonight, i still need to take calls, and pay my stupid broadband bill which i just got tocday but was due oct. 1st. oh man, i really hate dealing with my broadband provider. the have the suckiest customer service ever!
i attended my best friend's wedding yesterday. i didn't have time to prepare. didn't even get to dress up, i was tired, sleepy and pretty damned feverish. we had to coordinate the wedding host, the sponsors, usher people in their seats. it was pretty embarassing that while everyone was wearing a dress, i was wearing a suit-yeah, a power suit, a light blue blouse and black slacks, all sloppily hanging on my shoulder cos i never had time to check if they all still fit. apparently, i need a new wardrobe, thanks to losing weight. hay, naku! gastos na naman. that wasn't the most embarassing part though. the most embarassing part was being called for the bridal bouquet toss. i hate being on stage and thank god, i wasn't at all needing the bouquet. not that i never want to get married. i'm just saying that getting married was not something you get off chance... it's a decision you have to make everyday that the man you love is the one you're gonna wake up with every morning and the one you'll make sweet love to every night, someone to share your life with, someone who will make you mad, crazy and will probably confuse the hell out of you but will make you love him more.
my bestfriends are wonderful. they are the source of a lot of craziness on my end. they have been encouraging me with everything that i was going through. i have never appreciated them more than i did yesterday. they were both looking forward to the day that they will be the ones saying i do. when they got to me, and asked me when i will be even trying to get a date, i just smiled, and said it's not important now. what's important is that i am happy being single and not expecting anything from anyone. i am really happy. yeah, sometimes, i dream of a wedding to the man i love. it doesn't matter where and how it's done, i guess, a wedding is not complete unless it's the marriage you're celebrating. maybe in the next 10 years or so. haha. weird how one person's life event can actually make you question your life. ako, wag muna. i need to work on things-a lot of things.
did i mention that i hate my broadband? haah! well, that's something to work on. i need to be more patient with my people. and i need to be more appreciative of what's being offered to me. well, someday, i'll figure it out.
i am at a standstill, a blah in my life. i want someone to share it with and someone who's sure that he will be ready for what i can dish out. i guess having someone with me won't make my life less of a blah, but it's going to be pretty colorful. i want someone who can love me for who i am. hay naku, sana, someday... Ü