i'm going to regret this... but i have to say it.i love you. and every minute, every second, i will regret not even talking with you. if you are reading this, know that you are on my mind, constantly. and i curse the day that i saw you as mine. you were never mine. you were a borrowed treasure. and now i have to return you and i selfishly can't... i need to see a life that doesn't have you in it. i need to see myself, alive and well, in the future, without you, so i can see me again. i have begged god time and time again, for you to see what i mean to you. there is no point in wishing for you to see me. all i need to know is that for a time, i saw you and you were, and still are, the most beautiful and precious thing that i will ever see. you are my happiness. you are my light. you gave meaning to my life. you showed me right from wrong. you made me weak so i can realize that i need to be stronger. i know you're not going to love me for all that i can and will be. i need to see you as something i will never have.
distance and time kept me apart from you and i feel cheated of a love that could have been so much more beautiful and wonderful. all i needed was one more chance. one more way to look at things. one more month to show you how i have changed. one more week to tell you my heart's desires and to wish they were yours too. one more night to hold your hand and dream that someday will be yours and mine. one more hour to hear your voice. one more minute of your kiss to last me a lifetime. one more second to look at your perfect face. one more time to hear you say you love me. one more painful apology and i'll be on my way...
on my way to me, to freedom, to pain, to suffering, to sorrow and eventually, acceptance.
acceptance that one more time does not happen.
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